Hi all I posted snoopy's pic for my profile pic..She was a dear friend..She passed last night she was struggle to breath..and I tried to comfort her..but there only so much u can do and i knew it was happening ..

I've been around alot of animals frcm all walks of life..yes including people

she is laying here on her blanket, I think the lack of oxygen was making her tired and and she just went to sleep..I asked God not to let her suffer..and I knew she needed to go..

I had to put her sister to sleep 2 yrs ago..

I wasn't able to make that judgement call twice..

even though it hurts i'm also relieved..she just wasn't making it anymore and I kept finding excusses not to have her put down..

I just can't quit crying and I know thats normal ..if there is a normal in our life time..

My two dogs derseve the purple heart medal..

When i got them, they were 4weeks old, snoopy the black and white was a sack of bones and the runt..

I took"m from a mother of 8 pups and  found them all homes..

The mom was a yellow lab and the father was a queenland blue heeler..Great mix ..should be a breed in my book..


I was living at the time with a man, we remodel repo trailers, and lot of pot and whiskey in my life back then..

which i didn't consider drugs at the time or partying..cause I was a cocaine runner and crystal meth runner  and i ran Lsd and PCP and when ur up there and alot main vein lining went on in my youngers yrs  "whats Pot" that like a cigerette..

anyways by then i was a single mom, my son was just a baby..at the time...and I was trying to live a better life..

on my own accord and free will..

the man i was living with well was a good person till the whiskey got heavey..

I had to leave in the middle of the night one night and it was frozen cold dead of winter..domestic violence..

I had been given an ol van that the side was wrecked and we wired the door shut..

I took my two puppies and my son and ran and went to my friends intown who had a small place and they where poor too, they hardly ever had toilet paper..just an idea..

they allowed us to park in the driveway and they brought us there heater and an extension cord, to keep warm..

but because of the van door..being bent the heated air just went out in the cold..

I wrapeed my son the best i could, and lay him tightly up against me.. and from exhaustion fell asleep..I woke later from the freezing temps and it was snowing again..all the windows where solid snow..we were in a freezer

I couldn't find my son..I moved the blanket around and down underneath the blankets by my knee was my son..with two puppys one on each side of him snuggley and warm..I remembered bursting out into tears and thanking God..even though i didn't deserve it and asked Him to to please not hurt my baby..

That i was soo sorry for all this and if it were possible i wanted a way out..a chain of events took place after that.. some better, some worse

 but in the end through DWI's and jail and having the state take away my son away  i found the doorway that God opened for me..

Ya know it amazes me that even though we are stuck down under the clasp of the Devils den..I have found that God is readily there for us when we call to him and ask Him in..

And I see all the blessing He gives of unconditionally with His mercy and love..even when we can't see , feel or hear..


My mircle dogs are gone but today I'm clean and sober and drug free...and my lil boy in 200lbs and and muscular and takes weight training and runs and works out at the gym and he stands towering over His lil short mom at 5'10..


Thank U Lord Jesus for saving a wreched wench like me..

God Giveth and God taketh away..

My bike came home yesterday and is up and running like a dream and today my dogs are gone ..and my heart is heavey..

but God can break down the coldest and thickest walls, and today i thank God I can feel my heart..and because of God I have Him to turn too and not , verbal physical and mental abuse..

but a warm fuzzy horses and a motorcycle..


God does know whats best for us when we let it all go and seek His will for us 1st daily..

God Bless and ride safe..

I have to go burry snoopy now.. 

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